Well I think the tittle says it all... watta week.

School Spec was a God send. A place, where you're treated as a celebrity because you can dance haha. Where tourist will ask to video you, lil kids wanting to give you a hi-5, politicians shaking your hands and having 1000's of girls in a packed stadium screaming for you.

The memories you make you make, are those that will stay with you forever, I mean, how can you forget dancing on a stage with the sounds of thousands of people screaming and applauding for you.

And the boys... how could I ever forget them, for people that I've only known a week, it feels like it had been a lifetime. The times spent chasing after girls, going Galazy World, dancing, or just sitting round doing nothing, were great and were definitely highlights of the year. It's also a place filled with LOTS of pretty girls, so imagine leaving a group of teenage boy loose on the place, its in all good fun of course.

It's hard to describe, because there are so few words I could use to tell you what an amazing experiance it has been. I mean after a tiring night, where your sweaty, fatigued and body is aching, you still long for it, and you still get up the next day.

For me, it was awesome, a place to escape to a world that is like a dream, where everything just seems to be a blur and forget the hell you call life. For this place, is all you ever need.

But all good things come to an end, reality is slapped back, good times are gone. The short lasted dream are only now figments of your imagination...

Time to go to sleep see ya'll soon

Have you ever had one of them weeks that were just fucked up?? Like none other and nothing seems to go freaking right and it keeps going wrong? Yeh well I'm having one of them weeks.. D=<

I'ma content kinda guy, and usually takes alot to get me like this you know.

I mean screwing up a 10 min speech in front of business people? Ok I can handle that.

Having a english essay, legal assesment, and music assesment dued sometime in the same week? Yeh alright I can handle that.

Pracitising the same dance routine for 6 hours in a room with no air-con with another 100 boys? It's damn annoying but I can handle that still.

Having your bike tires slashed, then buying another bike tube, only to find it that it has holes, then having to delivery meds in the boiling sun? Yeh I'm gonna start to get annyoyed abit.

Not having a girl that you thought was pretty awesome not talking to you anymore? I can't help but hurt..

Having to see my mum reading the rejection letter saying I didn't get the $2000 scholarship, which I didn't even want to apply for but a teacher did anyway? That killed me... to see the dissapointment in her eyes pierced through me like a knife.

I didn't want to apply for that scholarship, I knew I wasn't gonna get, but no, Miss had to insist and go ahead anyway. I didn't keep my hopes up. My mum did though...

And then all these other problems surrounding my mind..

And I'm fckn pissed cause I know there are other people having a bloody tougher time then me out there suffering so much more worse, and I feel like a selfish prick, but I can't help it!!

And it doesn't seem I have a life anymore, it just seems to be dragging on, no certain path, no certain door... and I'm worried and I'm scared.

I've also come to a realisation of something... my life is so lonely... my world is lonely, I don't have any particular person to come to, my family... I love them, so so much, but I can't show it to them I don't know why, I can't tell them anything. My friends, I know they care, for that I'm so grateful, but my fucking trust issues... some may think they know everything bout me, but there's so many things they don't know and I wish I could tell them, but I don't want them to see me differently.

And I try to keep positive, I wanna keep my head up and I wanna smile. But these days, there not much to smile about. I just wish there was a soloution to everything that needed to solved. All I want is to happy and yes sometimes that is a bit too much to ask.

I'm lonely, all I want is for someone to be there for me, but I keep pushing people away, cause I damn stupid like that. People see me smiling and shit, ain't always real. Well I guess this was my venting for today, I'll try keep it updated.

P.S Oh and yerh for all my mates that do read this, you know why I've been kinda weird lately and stuff now and yeh

"Sometimes it's all just a act."

So it's been a while since I've wrote anything in here, my bad xD

But yehh I've had ton of stuff going on, I don't know where to start really.
Everyone seems to be hating each other these days... well to be more specific, the girls are actually haha.
The boys just stand there and watch, not really knowing what to do lol.
It's sad though, I mean 1 year left at school, and we're having these pittiful fights, doesn't seem worth it really and it leaves you wondering sometimes.
Oh and I was recently in the hospital as well for a minor sugery, to remove a "mucus rentented cyst" sounds nasty doesn't it? :L
And it occured to me that, a place that's spose to heal you and everything, is so lifeless, and full of misery and shit, bit of a downer really =/
But me operation went well, all is good, cept its pain in the ass trying to eat D: haha
Life has been pretty average otherwise lol me and the boys have made all made it into School Spec which is pretty sick, and I've secured myself a group solo, so I'm pretty happy haha
And I've been meeting new people as well lol well a person to be correct lol
Lexy intro'd me to her, she's cool lol she's pretty, cute, funny as well haha
Hanged out with her the other day in the City, it was nice lol
But with my track record I ain't keep my hopes up haha
Yet it is nice to have someone to miss and look forward talking to though..

Well that's enough from me fo now, byeee

Well I think the tittle says it all... watta week.

School Spec was a God send. A place, where you're treated as a celebrity because you can dance haha. Where tourist will ask to video you, lil kids wanting to give you a hi-5, politicians shaking your hands and having 1000's of girls in a packed stadium screaming for you.

The memories you make you make, are those that will stay with you forever, I mean, how can you forget dancing on a stage with the sounds of thousands of people screaming and applauding for you.

And the boys... how could I ever forget them, for people that I've only known a week, it feels like it had been a lifetime. The times spent chasing after girls, going Galazy World, dancing, or just sitting round doing nothing, were great and were definitely highlights of the year. It's also a place filled with LOTS of pretty girls, so imagine leaving a group of teenage boy loose on the place, its in all good fun of course.

It's hard to describe, because there are so few words I could use to tell you what an amazing experiance it has been. I mean after a tiring night, where your sweaty, fatigued and body is aching, you still long for it, and you still get up the next day.

For me, it was awesome, a place to escape to a world that is like a dream, where everything just seems to be a blur and forget the hell you call life. For this place, is all you ever need.

But all good things come to an end, reality is slapped back, good times are gone. The short lasted dream are only now figments of your imagination...

Time to go to sleep see ya'll soon

Have you ever had one of them weeks that were just fucked up?? Like none other and nothing seems to go freaking right and it keeps going wrong? Yeh well I'm having one of them weeks.. D=<

I'ma content kinda guy, and usually takes alot to get me like this you know.

I mean screwing up a 10 min speech in front of business people? Ok I can handle that.

Having a english essay, legal assesment, and music assesment dued sometime in the same week? Yeh alright I can handle that.

Pracitising the same dance routine for 6 hours in a room with no air-con with another 100 boys? It's damn annoying but I can handle that still.

Having your bike tires slashed, then buying another bike tube, only to find it that it has holes, then having to delivery meds in the boiling sun? Yeh I'm gonna start to get annyoyed abit.

Not having a girl that you thought was pretty awesome not talking to you anymore? I can't help but hurt..

Having to see my mum reading the rejection letter saying I didn't get the $2000 scholarship, which I didn't even want to apply for but a teacher did anyway? That killed me... to see the dissapointment in her eyes pierced through me like a knife.

I didn't want to apply for that scholarship, I knew I wasn't gonna get, but no, Miss had to insist and go ahead anyway. I didn't keep my hopes up. My mum did though...

And then all these other problems surrounding my mind..

And I'm fckn pissed cause I know there are other people having a bloody tougher time then me out there suffering so much more worse, and I feel like a selfish prick, but I can't help it!!

And it doesn't seem I have a life anymore, it just seems to be dragging on, no certain path, no certain door... and I'm worried and I'm scared.

I've also come to a realisation of something... my life is so lonely... my world is lonely, I don't have any particular person to come to, my family... I love them, so so much, but I can't show it to them I don't know why, I can't tell them anything. My friends, I know they care, for that I'm so grateful, but my fucking trust issues... some may think they know everything bout me, but there's so many things they don't know and I wish I could tell them, but I don't want them to see me differently.

And I try to keep positive, I wanna keep my head up and I wanna smile. But these days, there not much to smile about. I just wish there was a soloution to everything that needed to solved. All I want is to happy and yes sometimes that is a bit too much to ask.

I'm lonely, all I want is for someone to be there for me, but I keep pushing people away, cause I damn stupid like that. People see me smiling and shit, ain't always real. Well I guess this was my venting for today, I'll try keep it updated.

P.S Oh and yerh for all my mates that do read this, you know why I've been kinda weird lately and stuff now and yeh

"Sometimes it's all just a act."

So it's been a while since I've wrote anything in here, my bad xD

But yehh I've had ton of stuff going on, I don't know where to start really.
Everyone seems to be hating each other these days... well to be more specific, the girls are actually haha.
The boys just stand there and watch, not really knowing what to do lol.
It's sad though, I mean 1 year left at school, and we're having these pittiful fights, doesn't seem worth it really and it leaves you wondering sometimes.
Oh and I was recently in the hospital as well for a minor sugery, to remove a "mucus rentented cyst" sounds nasty doesn't it? :L
And it occured to me that, a place that's spose to heal you and everything, is so lifeless, and full of misery and shit, bit of a downer really =/
But me operation went well, all is good, cept its pain in the ass trying to eat D: haha
Life has been pretty average otherwise lol me and the boys have made all made it into School Spec which is pretty sick, and I've secured myself a group solo, so I'm pretty happy haha
And I've been meeting new people as well lol well a person to be correct lol
Lexy intro'd me to her, she's cool lol she's pretty, cute, funny as well haha
Hanged out with her the other day in the City, it was nice lol
But with my track record I ain't keep my hopes up haha
Yet it is nice to have someone to miss and look forward talking to though..

Well that's enough from me fo now, byeee